Not Now…I’m Searching

 

Have you ever turned off your cell phone or another wireless device, and then turned it back on only to tap your fingers as it searched for a signal to connect? While you hastened to make your call, send your text, send that email, upload your video, or your pictures to Instagram or Face Book there was absolutely nothing you could do until a connection was made. A similar scenario is a dead battery. You may have the device, but it’s useless until it recharges. At best you can haul it around and look for ways to charge it. If you’re lucky you’ll just be able to plug it in somewhere nearby until it completely recharges itself. And then, there are those rare occasions where you simply cannot recharge it. It’s dead. It’s time for something new. I had a taste of this yesterday, and was enlightened because of it.

I had time to spare before my next session so I turned off my cell phone and parked underneath a near by tree to re-read the highlights in my study material. When I figured it was time for my next session, I reached for my cell phone to check the time. I forgot that I turned it off. So I turned it back on, some what anxious to know the time, concerned that I may now be late. I swiped the home screen repeatedly, thinking that would speed up the connection. Though the phone had powered on, it was still searching for a connection. So, although I saw that it was exactly 1:00 pm, which was the time of my appointment, I could not text message her to let her know that I was just five minutes away.The home screen was frozen, because it was still “trying to connect.” Just as the connection was made, with only one bar left, it powered off. I arrived five minutes behind our scheduled appointment time, but five minutes early on Spirit’s time, as she was just saying good bye to visitors. I sat at our usual meditation spot and waited for her to join me. Then the thought occurred, there’s nothing you can do but wait while someone is searching for their connection. While this thought derived from my earlier technological experience with my cell phone I could also see how it applied to people and life.

If we take this example and apply it to people or ourselves then we can understand why patience and trust are essential, and why finding our purpose in life will always heighten our awareness with source energy. All of us have had or will have a friend or a loved one that we’ll want to reach out to help or connect with in some way. It may appear that this individual is unreachable. If we can step back and depersonalize our attachment, our agenda, and our expectations, for this individual then we can see that this person is trying to find their connection, and may be dubious about the signals.

A person trying to find their connection–purpose–spiritual calling, may show up as a someone who is unemployed–between jobs–ill–struggling with addiction–mean or crass, forlorn, tempestuous, depressed, anxious, or cumbersome in a plethora of ways. If we can recognize that they are souls unfolding, working out their soul impediments–channels who are uncertain about the signals that they are receiving from source then we are keener in assisting them on their journey as they connect with their purpose.

Some of us will have the privilege to be a benefactor to those around us who are searching; but the reality is their connection will be made on their own time and at their own will. The innate penchant for many of us is to keep tapping the home screen, to keep turning the power on and off, to keep changing the outlets, to keep insisiting and persisting; and what does that do? It runs our batteries up, and eventually they die, and cannot be recharged so easily.

If we want to reserve energy it would be advantageous to give them space to roam, figure things out, and search until they find their connection. Offering them tools such as books, workshops, classes, websites, and other positive affiliates may help them recharge, and reconnect. If our connection is strong enough, temporarily we can act as a “carrier” for and of them while they are on “E,” until they can refuel themselves again. The one thing to remember is that when a person is searching, you must be patient, insisting will prove to be inconsequential until a connection is made.

 

Permission to Unfold & Open

I’m all for planning. I really am, but lately plans seem to be of less importance to me. What has been important to me has been opening and unfolding, letting everything that’s inside of me rise to the surface and come out. It’s scary, but when I gave it deeper thought then the real question was, what are you afraid of—who are you afraid of. When I asked myself those questions I got two answers. The first answer was: I’m afraid of looking stupid, then I’m afraid of looking stupid in front of people. Is that all? That was basically it. I was afraid that if I opened and allowed myself to unfold organically that I might look a fool in some way. I was also afraid of what my personal process of unfolding just might do to those around me. You know everyone wants us to be someone that they are comfortable around? God forbid your personal unfolding creates massive waves and shakes a stranded–stand still boat into movement!

So I sat with the thought and the feeling which was the fear that I might look stupid in front of people and that some people may be uncomfortable. Then oddly enough, I burst into laughter in the midst of my inner reflection, because I remembered how stupid I looked in the past when I decided to open, unfold, be bold, about something in my life. I also remembered the successes. Every time I decided to boldly unfold, success followed, and I also felt more free—truly healthy inside and out. It was true, some people raised their eyebrows and pointed fingers at the eccentric fashion of my opening. True, there were people who were uncomfortable but then it was over. And, as a result of my authentic opening—unfolding, I felt liberated, and guess what else happened? I was able to inspire another to feel okay about opening, and being themselves, and allowing all that beautiful light inside of them to shine.

Now, a get real note about unfolding—opening. It’s not always pretty. Sometimes it can down right ugly, messy, dark even. Sometimes, your personal opening—unfolding can, and will make others uncomfortable. So should you stayed curled up? Should you remain locked in yourself. No. You should unfold—and open anyway. My recommendation, would be (if you know what’s inside of you may not be considered pretty) to find a way to open anyway that is safe for you and those around you. Things like art help us to express just what’s locked down deep. Painting, writing, sculpting, spoken word, speaking out, dancing, drumming, humming, speaking to a professional–a spiritual advisor, praying, starting a fire and writing it all down and burning it up. It’s all good. It really is all good to open and unfold. The things that we hold inside magnify, and draw to us more things that will keep us bottled up. That’s so NOT what’s up! What’s up is our understanding the process of unfolding and the importance of finding more ways to open, and express our best and most authentic self. It would do our souls some good if we understood that we are not helping ourselves or anyone else by closing ourselves off, and locking ourselves in. Commit to the process of graceful unfolding, and then plan around that…I would say.

Graceful unfolding is giving yourself permission to open, and honoring what’s inside. I AM unfolding gracefully. I honor what’s inside. Blessed Be.

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